The Greyrealm

I finally filled out my mid-year update to my performance review.  I am a lot harder on myself than I should be. The truth was, I had been putting it off because I didn’t feel like I had that much to put down. Once I started typing, though, I realized how wrong I was. No, not everything project at work is where I would like it to be, but I have done a hell of a lot work to even get them to where they are now. That includes dealing with a flood that kept us preoccupied for over a month.

By the time I finished typing it out, I felt much better. Sometimes, having too high of expectations can be a real problem. This is especially true when it creates a sense of failure that doesn’t really exist. Biting the bullet is also a good idea, I let that performance review hang there too long. It is nice to have it done!

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Summer is really closing down fast, isn’t it? It seems like just yesterday I was looking forward to season full of promise and possibility. What came wasn’t exactly what I expected. Much of what I had hoped, or expected, disappeared early on. The flood did a great job of taking care of the rest.

So what now? My last test of the summer is done, and soon the fall season will kick into gear. What comes next? Courtney is about to pick from two different possible job paths, but both are simply bridges to lead her to her Masters in History. The course is set there, and I am glad to see her on it.

As for me, I am about to be stupid. I am about to risk a lot for something that I know I will love. It may mean a loss of money, but it may not. I have been talking with my English professor and I am going to take the honors program for English. This will all but force me to pursue my Masters as well, and I fully plan on doing that. I may not be a spring chicken anymore, but it is time I started pursuing my goals and dreams.

So there it is. I have a focus and a goal, and slowly everything falls into place!

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My days either go by too quickly for me to notice, or slowly enough for me to painstakingly count every second.  I’m sitting, reading a fictionalized biography of Anne Boleyn, then next we’re out of Kool-Aid and I’m running to the store to get some.  Some kid is bawling under one of the tables and won’t come out.  Some other kid is totally mouthy and disrespectful, and I don’t tolerate that sort of bull.

It’s never a dull moment, working for the Science Station… but that’s all ending next Friday.  I’m in a state of flux, right now… I don’t know yet where I’ll be going, or what I’ll be doing.  It’s scary, but also very exciting.  Because I don’t know what’s going to be happening… it’s all one big adventure, and I love adventures!  I do wonder where this next path will take me, or what happens if I take the left fork instead of the right, or do I travel straight ahead?  I don’t think I’ll be doing that, but hopefully the direction I decide upon will take me farther from here and closer to where I want to be in life.  I know I want to go back and get an advanced degree in History, so I’m studying for the GREs.  I know I enjoy the handicraft stuff, so I am slowly getting back into that.  I’ve been trying to get my creative juices flowing by making myself write something every day.  I’m hoping to use a lot of the vocab I’ve been learning from my studies!  I’ve not gotten too far in the alphabet… that’s the one thing I’ve noticed, though, as much as I do have a very wide vocabulary base, it’s not enough.  So, I study!

I LOVE my new lappy.  He has a name.  I liked how Geoff named his Maxi, after the Jeep he sold so he had the abundance of cash to buy the machine… I named mine Yuy.  Sure, I didn’t get a whole lot of money for selling him, and that cash is long since spent… I like having a little bit of him still here.  So, my new PowerBook G4 is called Yuy.

I honestly don’t mind having a slightly older laptop.  It does everything I want and more, so you’ll not hear a peep of complaint out of me!  I’m entertained to explore and find new programs or play around with the Dashboard.

Anyway, this is Courtney with Yuy, signing out!

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Just wanted to give a shoutout to Othgood, for his generous sharing of a sweet little PowerBook!  He will be given a loving, caring home, once I learn more about laptops >.<.  For now, though, it will be a learning experience!  I just wanted to say that I appreciate it!!!

(I’ve already figured out how to get my wallpaper to Wall E !!)

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And now, it’s almost over.  It’s been a long time since I was able to not only find the time to update, but also find something to update about.  It’s been general knowledge for a little while, about a month, that after summer camp gets done, I will be laid off.  I’ve been able to schedule a few interviews here and there, and some of them are really promising.  Wish me luck!!

I’m looking forward to what the future may hold, and to embracing it with both hands.  I’m honestly trying to do take some action and make my life go the way I want it to, and work towards that end.  That’s why I also had a meeting with a counselor at Coe about going to Grad school.  I’m studying right now for the GRE, which is the test one takes to get into graduate school.  I’m working hard, reviewing simple math concepts that should come as second nature, but don’t.  So, that’s frustrating!  Still, with a little work and remembering, it’s all coming back pretty well.

Wish me luck!

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Saturday has officially caught up with me. We spent most of the day with the kids at the beach. While it was a hell of a lot of fun, it was also exhausting. I was fine for most of the day, today, but as of this evening I am just starting to fall apart. The body wants some rest, so rest it shall have.

Thus, no work tomorrow. That makes two Mondays in a row, which I hate doing, but I would be useless there. Admittedly, last Monday was all about the final disposition of flood issues, but it is still annoying. Give me a little more sleep tomorrow and I will be able to work from home for most of the afternoon. Hopefully, this will give me some time to study as well. I have an Econ test on Tuesday and a Lit and and Econ final next week. Ah the joys!

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Well folks, it’s finally happened. Courtney convinced me to get an iPod touch. I wanted something more portable than a laptop, but with enough capacity to handle the basics of what I need. The Touch (with a bit of coaxing) does just that!

Now, the Stanza Ebook reader folks just need to get to work of a Windows sharing solution. I doubt I’ll catch Othgood’s luck of being all but handed a Macbook Pro! *grins*

Ah well, I’m off to get this thing fully configured for me. Be well, all!

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